When I'm GONE, atleast YOU KNEW...

(Updated as of 3.20.14.. Stashed and or "( )" words mean that they are the "WASs" and "WEREs" written from years ago and italicized/colored ones are the PRESENT FACTS/INFOS.. NOTHING's permanent but CHANGES. EVERYONE and EVERYTHING does.)

"EVERY SECOND COUNTS. WE'LL NEVER KNOW WHAT COMES NEXT..."

I don't really know why, but these words repeatedly flashin' on my mind. Maybe because I'm so doomed this passed few days so I came up with this because of the thoughts "what if I'm gone? Did you really had that chance to know me well? Do you know what I really wanted? Have you ever felt that YOU were IMPORTANT to me?" So if you're reading these facts about me that I don't even know if you damn care what was written here, atleast you knew. I don't effin' care if you'll be bored, pissed off or whatsoever with what was written here. If you don't like what you're reading now, then STOP! Why the hell on Earth would I care if you hate this or ME?!? >;/ HAHA!

• Iam Jera Jed Rodriguez Agdeppa. My friends call me Jera, Jed, Jedz', Je, B2, B22B, MOK, BRUH, LL, FRIENDSHIP, COUZ, TEH, PAR, SISSY and I WAS -lyianzedj'o6.. and -lyianJ.. every summer until June for our literary folio named Aurora. [NOW -xiyhanJ678..] XIYHANJ- eXordium + Ianne + YHean + HANah + Jera. 678- 6 (sixth) of 7 (July): MY birthday/ 7 (July) 8: Our INAY Ianne's birthday/ 8 (August) 6: PAX Alfia's birthday. [Got my pen name's origin? ;D

• I'm STUBB0RN and sometimes moody and OVERSENSITIVE, [or maybe NOT just "sometimes" with this thing!] childish, IMPULSIVE. [that's one thing that more often gives headache to those who really knows and close to me!] but the REAL me? I'm friendly, sweet and thoughtful ["I guess"]. =) And oh, one more thing; one of my friends said that I'm an "anghel na demonyita." I'm a short tempered person. Mess up with my friends, especially my best ones, and you're DEAD!! So unless you want your period to come out from your nose, I suggest you BACK OFF!! To sum these all up,in all honesty, I AM a BIPOLAR freak, "IMMATURE!" (as my best friend told me.) I was undoubtedly vain, as you can see, I love taking pictures, but it USED TO be in groups most of the time. But now, I became LITERALLY "vain" taking pics alone since internship started and became inseparable with this particular friend slash "almost BEST FRIEND" slash "SISTER from another mother I am with.. ;))

• The most important people in my life call me these: BHESXHY, PAX VEX, GURLFWND, DARS/FIANCE/BOYFWND  and the others are the above mentioned earlier.

**THE MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE IN MY LIFE:

>My BEST FRIENDS:

**(Bhesxhy) MA. DIANNE YHEAN CAPISTRAN0 SALAZAR..

**(Besh/Beshie) KASHIECA MOIRA BUTOR PANALIGAN..

 **(Gurlfwnd) RAZELLE SANTOS ITOSES..

**(Pax) MARIE ALFIA LOU CREUS VALDEZ..

**(Dars/fiance/boyfwnd) MC LAVERN CAPIAN CAPIENDO..

**ANGELES Group; The "ORIGINALS"esp. ZELLE (as mentioned UP there ^^) and MA. NORMA FRANCHESKA ILAO CASTRO..

**(BESSIE) HANASAN-LY HAIYHJHLY SACRAMENTO CABRERA..

>My Exo FAMILY, especially my PAX MARIE ALFIA LOU CREUS VALDEZ and of course, our love, love, love adviser slash "Inay", Ma'am MARIANNE IBAÑEZ QUITALIG! =))

(EXORDIUM 1112)

(PAX Alfia and our INAY Ianne :))

My BKD FAMILY :)) (long GONE since everything felt like just HYPOCRISY when "some thingSSS" happened. Only a few remained "REAL," or should I say just ONE to be EXACT..)

My man, my  baby ARDEN JAY DE OCAMPO SY♥♥♥

**This superb sweet and thoughtful "mini-ME" version, my Bebe Sis ACE CORPUZ YU (^-^)

** My sisteroooo dear KRISHNA RODRIGUEZ AGDEPPA

**MY PERSONAL FAVES:

• Spongebob, Piglet, Yoyo Cici, Casper, Southpark, Jack Skellington/Tim Burton (whatever!), Emily the Strange(r)the minions and Agnes of the movie "Despicable Me" are my fave cartoon characters, and I would be glad having bunch of them as stuff toys! :D Actually, I'm really into stuff toys, (especially TURTLE stuff toys) whether they're my fave cartoon characters or not.

(AGNES and two of the MINIONS of "Despicable Me." :)) 

• I love GLOW IN THE DARKs.. :))

• I wasn't that much of an animal lover, BUT I was hooked to those cutie 'lil doggies and was looking forward to have one named "CHUCKIE" since I started playing with my friend's sister's babies QUINCY and GEORGIA. That relaxing and "no worries" feeling whenever I play and talk to them. Yes, I don't mind if some will think I'm crazy for doing that.. I learned from the BEST that dogs can be your LOYAL companion and STRESS RELIEVER even more than humans can. :))

• BLACK, RED [Actually, BLACK together with RED] Pink, Light Green, Light Blue, and Purple/Violet. They're the colors I really love so much! =)

• Hmm, I love watching Horror/Suspense Thriller films. I love reading Horror Books too .Well actually, am not really into reading books, unless it's a HORROR one and or anything about VAMPIRES.

• Pizza and Adobo, I won't mind having them as my meal for the whole week! That's how I really love these foods! I LOVE "BLOOD" too! I meant, DINUGUAN! ;P Wuhahahaha! And ohh, I will never dare to forget..., STARBUCKS FRAPPUCINO and MILKTEA!!!!♥ And when internship started, CHUCKIE, SHAWARMA, PLATO WRAPS and that exotic all time pinoy fave BALUT became additionals  to those said faves, all because of my "new" "ALMOST best friend" slash inseparable food trip and gala buddy ZELLE.. :)) San Lucas days! Oh I became extremely PG, as in "PARATING GUTOM" when I became best friends with my bitchesa beshie KASH! n.n Moshi Manju, Ice Cream (specifically DQ), that cookie that I do not know what brand, and...,CAKES!!!! Especially Banapple Cakes! :D I'm such a MAKI monster too, BUT..., oh well, beshie hates it! Hihi! :P

• I hate foods with GINGER, RAISINS and OKRA too. And most of all, I hate FROGS!!!! >_< They're my worst NIGHTMARE and the most horrible creature that ever existed for me!

• If Haley James Scott is afraid of CLOWNS, well I am TOO! But I'm more scared of..,DUMMIES/PUPPETS! Even DOLLS! ={ They're really creepin' me out! ;(( >_<

(DUMMY from the movie "DEAD SILENCE.")

• I would rather listen to music than watch TV because TV shows nowadays suck! And if I'm gonna watch, it's either just 0NE TREE HILL, GOSSIP GIRL, VAMPIRE DIARIES, PRETTY LITTLE LIARS,  THE SECRET CIRCLE, S0UTHPARK,RAVENSWOOD, ONCE UPON A TIME or just any CD, movie. I'm not really into local TV programs, except nowadays, this "INA, KAPATID, ANAK." I bet you already know WHY! ;'))

• • OTH, PLL and GG stars, especially Sophia Bush (Brooke Davis), Hilarie Burton (Peyton Sawyer), Bethany Joy Galeotti (Haley James Scott), Troian Bellisario (Spencer Hastings), Ashley Benson (Hanna Marin), Lucy Hale (Aria Montgomery), Shay Mitchell (Emily Fields), Keegan Allen (Toby Cavanaugh) Leighton Meester (Blair Waldorf), Blake Lively (Serena Van Der Woodsen),  Shantel Vansanten (Quinn James), Jackson Brundage (Jamie Scott), Chad Michael Murray (Lucas Scott), James Lafferty (Nathan Scott) and Jennifer Lawrence (Katniss Everdeen) of the HUNGER GAMES, Elizabeth Lail (Anna), Georgina Haig (Elsa), Jennifer Morrison (Emma Swan) and Colin O' Donoghue (Killian Jones/Hook) of ONCE UPON A TIME.And also, those cutie-patootie triplets of "The Return of Superman;" DAEHAN, MINGUK and MANSE! (^-^) are my fave celebs. :D

(SOPHIA BUSH a.k.a "BROOKE DAVIS" of ONE TREE HILL)

(HILARIE BURTON a.k.a "PEYTON SAWYER" of ONE TREE HILL)

(BETHANY JOY GALEOTTI a.k.a "HALEY JAMES - SCOTT" of  ONE TREE HILL)

 (TROIAN BELLISARIO  a.k.a "SPENCER HASTINGS" of  PRETTY LITTLE LIARS)

(ASHLEY BENSON  a.k.a "HANNA MARIN" of  PRETTY LITTLE LIARS)

(LUCY HALE  a.k.a "ARIA MONTGOMERY" of  PRETTY LITTLE LIARS)

(SHAY MITCHELL  a.k.a "EMILY FIELDS" of  PRETTY LITTLE LIARS)

 (KEEGAN ALLEN  a.k.a "TOBY CAVANAUGH" of  PRETTY LITTLE LIARS)

(LEIGHTON MEESTER a.k.a "BLAIR WALDORF" of GOSSIP GIRL)

(BLAKE LIVELY a.k.a "SERENA VAN DER WOODSEN" of GOSSIP GIRL)

(SHANTEL VANSANTEN a.k.a "QUINN JAMES" of ONE TREE HILL)

(JACKSON BRUNDAGE a.k.a "JAMES LUCAS SCOTT" of ONE TREE HILL)

(CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY a.k.a "LUCAS SCOTT" of ONE TREE HILL)

(JAMES LAFFERTY a.k.a "NATHAN SCOTT" of ONE TREE HILL)

(JENNIFER LAWRENCE a.k.a "KATNISS EVERDEEN" of THE HUNGER GAMES)

 

(DAEHAN, MINGUK and MANSE of "The Superman Returns.")

I've got tons of favorite singers/bands because I am such a music freak! But if I were to choose the BESTS among all of them, they are no other than DEMI LOVATO (because her songs were so INSPIRING!) and HAYLEY WILLIAMS. :))

 DEMETRIA DEVONNE LOVATO

HAYLEY NICHOLE WILLIAMS

• My ultimate crushes are: STEPHEN COLLETTI, STEVEN MCQUEEN,CODY ALLEN CHRISTIAN and of course Philippines' own hot, hot, hot cutie ENRIQUE GIL! ♥♥♥ [Have you noticed they have resemblance with each other? ;)]

(One Tree Hill's "Chase Adams," STEPHEN COLLETTI) 

(STEVEN MCQUEEN, "JEREMY GILBERTS" of The Vampire Diaries)

(YUMMYNESS! :D <Haha!> My ENRIQUE GIL! :D)

(Pretty Little Liar's "MIKE MONTGOMERY," CODY ALLEN CHRISTIAN)

• I'm a Social Networking Sites and Games Freak! ;))

> Life is unpredictable. We'll never know when our time is over .Nobody knows these things so if ever you're reading this right now, you're the first person or maybe one of those who already know:

• I want my HEART and my EYES be donated when I'm gone. This may sound dramatic but..,atleast part of me will still be alive for the people I love so much! And I hope, whoever who'll get my heart and my eyes will LOVE them as much as I did and will SEE for themselves why, why I treasured and loved these people I left behind so much.
• I want a PINK casket, okay?! Combination of PINK and WHITE to be exact. Got it??!

• I want these songs for my funeral mass:

I. ONE SWEET DAY II. NEVER SAW A BLUE LIKE THAT III. REMEMBER ME THIS WAY IV. CALLS ME HOME,  V. HEAR YOU ME.VI. OCTOBER.VII. WAG KA NANG UMIYAK (by Kz Tandingan)VIII. BEAUTIFUL DAYS (by Kyla).

and I want them to be sang by no other than BKD's songbird and a very close friend of mine, Gurlfwnd RAZELLE ITOSES! Oh, EXCEPT "WAG KA NANG UMIYAK," because I want it to be sung by Bhesxhy DIANNE and B2 DONAMAE SALAZAR! And since you are a good singer too, (well, minus the lyrics memorization part :P), might as well have a fair share of performance during my funeral mass, LAVERN CAPIENDO!? Sorry my dears, you owe me a "concert" on my last day here on Earth. Atleast make me proud one last time that I have such talented friends like you.. :'))

II.I want these people EXCLUSIVELY for my EULOGY (in order); My sister KRISHNA AGDEPPA,my MOM, B2 DONAMAE SALAZAR, my best friends HANAH CABRERA and YHEAN SALAZAR and...SAVE the BEST for LAST.., and ... SAVE the BEST for LAST who, AS OF NOW, knows me BETTER more than anyone else does, as in EVERY BIT OF INFO about me, especially the UPS and DOWNS that I've been through, as well as those shitty mood swings I have. The CLOSEST to me among all other friends I have and I treat like my own sister, as a "family;  my bestest best REAL BEST FRIEND ever: KASHIECA PANALIGAN. :')) RAZELLE ITOSES..(You owe me one gurlfwnd, especially that you refused to make a description for me on the Sinag form.) ;(( Plus, I want a slideshow of all the photos I had with all the special people I treasured when I was still alive in each song that they will be singing.

(non compliance of these last wishes of mine will be subject to HAUNTING ALL OF YOU for your entire LIFETIME, I SWEAR!

And lastly..,

-"hndi ka fake,sa mga taoNG ngsa2v nun,cguro'kz hndi na ikaw ung dati nlang kilala, kz hndi muna gngwa ung mga bgay na nkasanayan nla,or hndi kapa nla kilala."

-"Ewan ko ba. Kahit ga'no pa ko kagalit sa isang tao, basta bigla nalang mawawala. MAS mahalaga sa'kin yung TAO KESA sa GINAWA niya."

-"TOTOO pala sinasabi nila, na pag NAWALA sa'yo ang isang tao, dun mo MALALAMAN na MAHALAGA pala siya sa'yo."

-"Hindi naman kasi ako agad bumibitaw sa isang friendship. Tsaka trials lang to."

-"You're a great best friend. I want you to know that you're the best "bestfriend" I have ever had."

-"Pls.. Pls lang.. Sinasabi ko 'to lahat because I don't want to lose you.."

-"Grabe? Ganyan ka talaga katalino? Na pati simpleng statement lang nilalagyan mo ng ibang kung anu-anu pa?"

-"Grabe ah, niload kita para malaman mu na namimiss kita at marami ako gusto ikwento sa'yo kahit sa txt man lang."

-"You're one of my best friends, never ever doubt, okay?"

-"Kung vinavalue mo pa pagiging mag-best friend niyo, go ka pa rin..Normal lang naman ang magkagalit or magkatampuhan. Ang IMPORTANTE, at the end of the day, you STILL UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER."

-"Nakaka-touch ka naman. Talagang nasa-ulo mo pa mga sinabi ko. Bihira nalang ang mga kaibigan na pinapahalagahan talaga ang isa't-isa. Isa ka na dun. I really appreciate it!"

-"If you really value your friendship, don't give up on it. Madalang lang makahanap ng true and best na friend talaga. You're already matured. Mas alam mo na how to handle those flaws between you and her. Intindihin mo na lang and never forget the word "PATIENCE". I know, palagi ikaw mismo umiitindi saknya, kahit sagad na sagad ka na. Pero my point is, whether the two of you has been always on that situation, never ever let go. Friendship should always be maintained. Ano ka ba, parang sa magsyota lang ee. Kapag may problema, ayusin. Kahit mahirap, go lang ng go! Kasi kapag pumunta sa puntong break up, BASAG! ANG SAKIT! Parang hindi normal ang lahat. SISTERS na kayong dalawa ee, for sure, kakayanin niyo 'yan."

-"Minsan gusto ko ngang sabihin na napaka-swerte niya kasi may best friend siyang KATULAD MO, na kahit ILANG BESES mo nang NASAKTAN, NANDIAN PA RIN. E ako, wala akong best friend, kaya minsan, di ko siya maintindihan..Sana naman ma-REALIZE naman niya yun."

-"Ano kaba..Para san pa at tinawag mo kong BEST FRIEND..Kung di rin tayo mag tutulungan at mag dadamayan pag may prob ka."

-"Basta, isa ka sa mga best friend ko..Yun lang ang importanteng point.."

-"Basta andito lang naman ako kahit hindi mo ko maging adviser, listener pa rin naman ako ng sentiments mo..Kahit toxic minsan I'll try my best na damayan ka."

-"Sa'yo yan?"------"BESTFRIEND NGA KITA." :))

-"Sino 'tong Jerajed Agdeppa? Magaling siya e. Tama naman lahat nung construction ng sentences niya e. Kaso ginagawa niyang text! Ano ba yang mga tuldok-tuldok na yan?????"

-"Jera please, wag mo muna akong kausapin....." :(( [FEBRUARY 21, 2012, 4:45PM]

-"aww D: Ate Jera kung katabi lang kita, na-hug na kita. kung pwede ko lang ilabas into words yung feelings ko ngayon, gagawin ko para maramdaman mo ate na talagang nahabag ako sa mga nasambit mo. napaka-swerte po ni Ma'am ******** at naging student niya kayo. Kung alam lang ni Ma'am kung gaano siya kahalaga sa inyo, sigurado ako ate maiiyak siya pag nalaman niya. madalang na lang po ang mga ganyang students ngayon, sobrang proud ako at naging kaibigan kita Ate Jera! DON'T GIVE UP Ate! tutulungan kita kahit sa prayers lang. I WILL."

-"Pag ba naglihim ibig sabihin walang kwentang kaibigan na? 
And the term MALAS NIYO LANG. Woooooowwww! Parang di mo bestfriend neh. Salamat huh."

-"Jera, bestfriend mo ko. Alam mo ang nakakainis? Yung tipong post ka ng post kahit ang INVOLVED ay IMPORTANTEng tao sayo."

-"Value HUMILITY as a virtue, and you will NEVER go WRONG."

-"Pakisabi kay Jerajed Agdeppa, THANK YOU neh? Wa sabihin niyo. Pag sinabi niyo yun tignan niyo, ILILIBRE KAYO NUN!"  - (HAHA!)

"Ano nanaman yan? Kay Jera galing yan noh? OKAY NA KAMI. Inadd ko na nga siya sa FB e. OKAY NA KAMI. Naalala ko nga yan, tinext ko nga sakanya yan nun. Nahihiya na nga ko sa kanya e kasi ineeffortan niya ko. Alam ko naman si Jera pagdating sa mga MOMMY-MOMMY niya dito sa school, mag-eeffort talaga yan pag may kasalanan. Pero kung yung babalik pa siya ng ***...,alam ko naman na iga-guide ka ni Ate mo pagdating sa mga article-articles."

-"Para kang pinagsamang Minzhu na Jera neh!" - (HAHAHA!)

-"Hayaan mo na baby. I'm doing this FOR OUR FUTURE. Hopefully TAYO NA TALAGA at mauwi sa simbahan."

-"Baby, there is no such thing as fixed marriage. Dad just want me to take over when he retired. Alam ni dad limitations niya. I won't let him control my happiness. My family and YOU ARE MY HAPPINESS. ILOVEYOUBABYKO! ;*"

-"Cousin, please let her daydream. I mean, yes all girls are fantasizing Jay. But YOU HAVE HIS HEART."

-"Jera, kung magagalit ka sa'kin wala ako magagawa, pero dapat hindi yung gusto mo lang marinig ang marinig mo."

-"Thanks for being my friend. Kahit na nagbabipolar ka, ttry ko pa din best ko para intindihin yun. Alam mo naman ako nabubwisit talaga ko sa twing bumabipolar ka. Haha! Anyways, salamat talaga. Lalo na sa pangungunsinti! Hahaha! Busit! Haha! Basta I'm always here. Wag lang ikaw bumipolar.

-"Hindi,kunsintidora ka lang talaga. HAHA!"

-"Enakapin magpautang. Josmeng mga taong a ren. Mga kaibigan mong yan para silang di kaibigan. Josme."

-"Minsan kasi pag nafeel mo na yung pagod sa pag eexplain, it means TAMA NA. Habang di mo pa nafi-feel yun, sige lang, mag-explain ka lang, pero once na napagod ka na, tama naman na. HINDI MO MA-PLI-PLEASE LAHAT kaya hayaan mo nalang sila."

-"Kasikung talagang friend ka, everytime na madadapa ako sasaluhin mo ko, hindi yung magagalit ka sa'kin pag nagkamali ako." 

-"Be with the people who brings out the best in you, at lie-low nalang muna sa mga taong hahatak sa'yo pababa."

-"Di naman dapat may ibigay, ang kelangan ko, explanation..

-"You know how they play, play better."

**Are the statements that I would never ever forget, whether it made me smile or it broke me to death. Needless to say, it's because the people who told me those things mean a lot to me. And 'am gonna treasure them as I live, 'am definitely sure of that! =)

[**Updated 03.20.'14, 05:15pm all stated are certified TRUTHS. ;))]

More about me? Ask the current "human encyclopedias" about my life, my BESTEST BEST BEST friend KASH and my closest friend ZELLE YHEAN. And or even MAU HANAH. They know me best more than anyone else does!

-xiyhanJ678..

jeiya

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